Daffodils

Unbeknowns to me, all the nagging that I was very enjoyably not having to deal with when my mom was gone was really being saved up for when she got back. Then hell broke loose! It was great I enjoyed it a lot. That week of bliss is gone and I really think that me being sick has something to do with the sudden temperature drop in the house when my mom came back through the door. Last week I asked simon to send me some pictures of him and his friends so he did, and as I was looking at them I was unbelievably jealous. People are having fun somewhere else, they are having fun and yet I am stuck here struggling to be happy every moment of high school. Is it fair that adults and not teenagers are what is making me want to drop out and finally start enjoying life? I can feel myself slipping back into my funk... God please bring springtime.

New Book

Well its over. It doesn't feel good. It doesn't feel bad. It's just good closure. Played hard to end the season. For some of us it was a BIG night. For some of us its the beginning of the next stage of our lives. For others its more like finally reading the last page of a book that's taken you months to read...and its an unexpected but great ending. It almost makes me cry to think that next season will be last time I play basketball on a team. I have finished my third year of Varsity basketball. How the hell did that happen?! I am driving! Next year I am going to be a senior! Not just an upperclassmen but a SENIOR! See finishing that last page makes it so you can look forward... and see what the next book you read is going to be...

Round 2

The first time RCHS girls have made it to Round 2 in playoffs in five years! I was extremely disappointed and relieved about the team we played. They sucked and looked like 10 year old's. Number 15 on their team got a technical, which I called in the first two minutes of the game. I am learning a lot of German and I really enjoy it. To me its amazing how much I love to learn. Anything and everything I want to learn. I want to travel so much I can taste it! So crazy the phases of life we go through.

Pulled Over

I got pulled over on my way home from banquet and it was pretty much awesome! Ironically I really enjoyed being pulled over. Sounds terrible but seriously I love to experience things like that. Things that you hear everybody talk about, yeah it was my turn finally. I hope I never forget my first time getting pulled over. Short story, pulled over because of the left headlight, but he didn't give me a ticket and he said I pulled over quickly and smoothly. Yep I am pretty proud of myself. I may not be an amazing driver but I definitely got through my time getting pulled over without getting a ticket because of my driving! Yes!
Shia LaBoeff. Setting the stage for the next generation of Indiana Jones. In the lastest Indiana Jones at the very end, there was a one-liner that just struck me hard. Oxley at the very end says: "How much the human life is lost in waiting." And those words have stuck with me. I don't want to wait. Not that I am very good at it anyway. But I really feel like I spend so much time waiting and being patient. I wait for the class time to be over, I wait for the week to end, I wait for the quarter to end, I wait for the school year is over, I wait for basketball to get over so I can get a job, I wait for basketball to be over so I can snowboard, I wait for basketball to be over so I can start trainging. I wait for summer to be here, I wait to turn eighteen, I wait till I find the right guy, I wait to become an adult. I wait to make my dreams come true, I wait, we wait, and then time is gone and we wait to die knowing that we were waiting for something to happen to us that we needed to make happen for ourselves. So from now on, no more waiting to turn eighteen to start my life, no waiting for school to be done, no more waiting for God to send the man my way, no more waiting...no more waiting.

Banquet

Half an hour late and counting!

Ironic?

So the Marvel Universe: something I had no idea existed. The Hulk, Ironman, me in my ignorance thought they were just super-heroes! Silly me! A conglomerate of characters in the world created by Marvel. The Avengers?! No idea! I am finding more and more in my life that I don't know which I think is probably a really healthy thing for a teenager, because I don't know how many parents I have heard say, "Well you think you know just everything don't ya!" Luckily, I love to learn and learn I am! I also had my first tutorial about cars. Another healthy thing for a FEMALE teenager to learn about, because most us couldn't change a tire! (lol) Anyway, this weekend i am grounded for staying up past twelve which only on some days bothers my mother. So I am grounded and didn't want to be confined to my house so I asked my mom to go to the outlets to check for banquet dress, which was a mission doomed to fail anyway because I am so freaking picky. Took a shower went to the outlets saw a couple friends and proceeded to look in like 6 stores for anything of interest more specifically for dresses. Saw two in Deb which I tried on of course they were hideous on so I went into the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory to ask about a job, then I went into rue 21 and Styles saw a bunch of cute things nothing I needed and nothing I was willing to spend money on, not that I had any money to spend anyway, but of all the things i saw today, all the cute jackets, shirts, purse, jewelry, and boys the one thing that made me stop and yearn was... wait for it...of course... a pair of hiking boots! Ironic?

I Am Back

I find that when I am happy with almost no complaints I have nothing to blog about really. Usually my frustration just pours out but I am not frustrated really. Ok that's not completely true I always have something to say. I started reading Lord of the Flies and I love reading classics that don't make me want to vomit because half the words I have to look up. To be honest that doesn't happen often anymore because of all the vocab Mrs. King is making us do but anyway. I love it so far, there is something elite about reading classics. I have read like 8 this year, I definitely have to read novels in between but reading certain classics that are such experiences.